Here's a hard one.....

I have been struggling through my daily disciplines...many excuses, but basically wrong just not doing what i know is important. So as i was evaluating this with a friend she said, why don't you do it ?? are you to busy?? i said no, and i said basically, i know that i will love that time and be blessed by it, but i can't make myself go do it....and i thought...that is really the essence of Jeremiah 2:11-13ish....that i instead of using the fountain of living water to supply my daily need--i start to dig out or find something else....and that according to God is evil....