Obsessions

I realized that I have another obsession that I didn't include in my side-bar. Unlike my other obsessions, I can trace this back to it's origin. I can also see steps to obsession in my mind like a movie. It started with a sermon and a video and a tug at my heart. Than sweeping...I think sweeping was the last straw.

The story- I sat under a sermon and realized the truth of abortion. I watched a video and saw the truth of abortion. I realized that sin is sin and my sin is as ugly as abortion...I have no right to look down on any sin, because in God's eyes...my sin looks like abortion. At the same time, I realized I WANTED to do something... I must do something. This is a huge mess that we humans have created, if can I do something, than I must! No way to explain it, just that I believe God put this obsession in my heart!
As I swept my kitchen, I swept up a penny. I thought to throw it away, not worth much, right.... than my obsession kicked in and I said, NO, everything I can give to the PCC must be given. Pennys cannot be thrown away, if they can help the PCC. Now, I am to selfish to give all I have to the center, but I have commited a portion of my life to the center, more than I ever thought I would.

The Obsession- The Pregnancy Care Center and the ministry there. I realize it sounds normal and ordinary--but it's NOT! (none of my obsessions are normal to me...they make me go crazy, talk non-stop to strangers, and act insane in front of people.).... Anyway, this is NOT normal, because God works and has His hand there. He answers prayers, like I have never experienced before. I sit with someone in a counseling room and ask what I can pray for them. I pray. Next time they come back.... God answered those prayers more directly and specifically than I could have ever imagined! They are amazed and I am amazed! They 'see' God and my faith is strengthened like crazy! This is just a small example of what I have seen. One day a lady came in and her obstacle to carrying the pregnancy to term made me feel like I should say, "go ahead, end it". But I knew better. Instead, I just prayed. The next time I talked to her, God removed and changed the obstacles!

The benefits- I work with wonderful people... Before each shift we pray for each other for various things... If I ever want prayer...I ask these people. We pray for each other there and God answers in MIRACULOUS ways... it is unexplainable, apart from God.

So than there are the things I DON'T see. We plant little seeds of God's love and God's word in there hearts. We may NEVER see how uses those seeds. We do desire to preserve life. BUT there is so much more that God does there. Our purpose is to LOVE people and show them Jesus. If they get that, we have accomplished a huge goal... If we preserve a life, what an unbelievable blessing. We cannot control what the woman chooses, but we can always plant a seed!

The 31st of May is our annual Lifewalk. I will be there and support my obsession. I still need to raise pledges. I want to go out to my community to ask, but have not made it that far. (that is the confession part of my story- I hate asking for money ;) .... So I am asking you to support my obsession as well... please join the Lifewalk, pray for the Lifewalk or give me money (hate that part). Apart from the Lifewalk, there are many service opportunities at the Pregnancy Care Center... just ask me! I would be obsessed to tell you about it!